Dead Fantasy III

Tifa VS Hitomi

and another cliffhanger

Dead Fantasy (Square-Enix VS Dead or Alive)

This is like the most epic series ever. It's been created by these people, but they are genius for doing it. I want this to become a game. It must. We must contact SQUARE-ENIX now.

Here they are.

I shall be uploading them as they are released.

So far, its:

Yuna, Rikku, Tifa, Rinoa and Kairi

VS

Dead or Alive Chciks (IDK their names)

Dead Fantasy I

Dead Fantasy II

Phone Call

I'm bored.

Today, I talked with Maryanne on the phone for like, over an hour.

I love having long phone calls. They're so much fun.

We just talked about IB History and about school, how we want to go back already, and hopefully we have the same classes. HAHA.

MacBookPro

So, today, I FINALLY got my new computer. It is a MacBookPro. I shall no longer have to deal with the unloyal PC anymore. It does not deserve to be used by me if it cannot uphold to my downloading necessities. Haha. Just Kidding. But still. Apple is MUCH MORE RELIABLE. I love it sooo much. Now, I must be very careful not to break this one.

Insignificant Burden

Wow, lately, that's what I've felt like. I don't know why, but I feel like I bother my friends. Do I seem to constantly nag? Constantly try to be in everyone's business? I think being alone is the cause. I guess I'm used to being with everyone at school, that being home with connections cut off, I try every chance I get. But I think that is the downfall. I feel that my friends are becoming more distant. Is it perhaps I don't have unlimited text? Is it because I dread upon trying to save friendships that have become obsolete? Maybe. I try everything I can, but nothing seems to work. I get no replies, and I think it's because of me.

Maybe it is. Maybe I pushed them away. And that just hurts. But then I take a second glance and see that...maybe, it's better this way. They have new lives. We have made all new friends and seem to forget about the others. But I simply refuse to let that feeling of repression win. I knew that at some point in time, we would go our separate ways and our friendships would cease to exist. I was afraid of that happening. I've never had something like that ever happen to me. It's almost as if death has separated us. But, nonetheless I keep trying, and I believe that is what is pushing people away even more. I'm sorry, but I think that soon, I will have to give up for good.

If what I do does not work, well then what else can I do? You go to different schools. I try to text, but never get a reply. But when you do is when I recover a small glimmer of hope. Hope that our friendship will rekindle and be reborn. I try to comment you on myspace...but the reply I get 3 days later is of no use. As time passes, I fear that my options will slowly, but surely run out.

I don't have my time left, I'm afraid, so I will try to do whatever I can. I wish that I could go back to the good old days. But I know that those days are long gone and past. I promise that I will do my best and also hope that you can return the favor.

And to all of my new and recent friends: I hope that this does not happen with you. I've realized that the chances for "Friends forever" are very slim, and only a handful are even that. I will cherish every moment I have, and also cherish the memories of those days as well. But, in the end, "Memories are nice, but that's all they are" (Rikku, Final Fantasy X). I hope that we can recover, and truly hope that maybe things can retrogress back to the way they were.

Friends, I tell you this: I will always be there for you. No matter what. No matter if you leave or if you try to discard your memory of me. No matter what, I will be there to the end. I want to strengthen our bonds and show that "Friends forever" really do exist.

Now, I will go now, and drown my sorrows in my music. That always seems to help...for a while.
I really must try to resist the "Inner Emo" (Neku Sakuraba, The World Ends With You).